Annnnnnndddddd breathe!!!!!

An MRI contrast scan

    Yesterday was a very anxious day. I had read many peoples post's regarding "scanxiety" when you get your MRI, let me tell you, it is very real! It started about Friday when the reality set in that we were going to have to see real evidence of what was happening in my head. As the weekend went on, I grew more concerned and moodier. The fact is, it is much harder than I thought to stay positive as the inevitable grew closer..... Me! The most  upbeat, laugh at death person, was starting to dwell on the negative. I had read a post regarding the toll that Chemo and Radiation takes on your brain and that combined with the unknown of status of the Dragon was almost too much.

    Thankfully, my support crew lifted me up and helped clear my head. I went in apprehensively but positive.I was surrounded with Love ( and nervousness) and we went to the hospital.

    Now, If you are going through this, a little bit of advise. When they ask if you want music, take it. The last MRI I had was noisy , uncomfortable, and claustrophobic. I seriously wanted to escape! This time with the knowledge of the experience, I was prepared. The Billy Joel playing in the headphones somewhat quelled the endless droning noise of the machine. Also realize, 15 minutes in there feels like an hour so just lay back and relax.

    With that task out of the way, we went to see the Rock Star Doctors. As always, Dr one is prompt, talkative and nice, but very curt. I couldn't look at the monitor as he went into the scan, so I watched Jenae's face. I knew she would know what she was looking at. Finally, I saw that ever pleasant,oh so familiar smile come across her face! " It appears that there is nothing here, but signs of a surgery" Rockstar said. So no growth? "Nothing" said Rockstar! This is the best news possible, and after some maintenance instructions, the Dr shakes our hands and leaves. Mary hugged me, Heather hugged me and we all sighed a great sigh of relief. We left the hospital knowing that we were on the path we desired the most.

     Please understand, this is not nearly the end. Glioblastoma can and will rise up again at some point.We will continue to take the Chemo and other myriad of drugs. But today, the battle was ours. All the trips to the hospital,all the radiation,all the sickness went rushing out of me like a woman who has given birth and forgotten the pain! I bought a little more time! I went to a little bistro with my three favorite ladies and toasted a victory. Life is sweet and not quite as short for certain today !

    Again, thank you all for your strength and passion. Mine is but one small life blessed to be touched by all of you. The thoughtfulness and kindness you have all gifted me with restores my strength and will to go on! I can never say it enough.

    As always, hug each other and forgive easily, and take an extra deep breath of life for me!

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